December 14, 2012

When I was a kid of about ten I used to get sick to my stomach watching the news. If I learned about a car accident or a disease, I was certain that someone in my family was about to get hurt or die from a similar tragedy. I just felt so helpless and sad knowing that bad things could happen to people I love.

As I got older I outgrew this physical reaction to the news and learned to see things with a little perspective.

Yesterday's news, though, has me feeling like the ten-year-old girl I once was.

I am sick to my stomach once again. Feeling so, so sad.

This did happen to people I love. In a place I hold dear. Children. Students. Teachers.

But I'm not ten anymore. And I am determined to not feel helpless. It must be possible to make this world a safer place to let our children be children and to watch them grow.

It simply must be.

I am searching.