Basically, I can't shake the feeling that I should be home with my kids full time while they are young. I realize that any time off may leave my career options wanting in a few years when I'd be ready to work again, but that just doesn't seem like a good enough reason to keep working. Sure, I like my job. I like the part-timeness of it and the flexibility. And the work itself. But I've never been all that good at balancing expectations of work and family while also maintaining a standard of quality that I've come to expect of myself. I'm doing okay, I think, at being a mom and a career-woman. I'd like to be doing great, though. And for that, I may need to do one thing at a time.
Or seriously cut myself some slack.
There's no telling what will come out of this soul searching. Sometimes it's just searching. Like I said, I've been here before. And to be sure, I'll be here again. It's just that, maybe. Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.
You know?
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I'm going with "cut myself some slack."
There's no right answer to this one. That said, you're probably doing a flipping amazing job.
I agree with KC. I do think if you are feeling like you want to stay home, you should honor that feeling. However, it's also true that most people have doubts about their choices at different points. So, I am not really helpful I guess.
Just ... pay attention to your instincts if they are more than just a passing feeling ... ?
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